
It HURTS to love u the way she does
and then look at u and realise how much
u don't care...
i don't understand why, i just don't get it... i tok to one of he's previous classmate ytd and i got a fucking news which said that he had a gf 1 yr ago(when we were still together) he said he saw him hugging her and he tot that i was the gal... F... i noe i should have trust him aft all he is my boyfriend, wadever... but this is not the 1st time i heard that he got other gf.. how am i suppose to believe him? i got soo mad and called him in the middle of the night and demanded an explanation from him... he was like... soo pissed off with my attitude.. he felt that i was being ridiculars and not trusting him at all.. fancy waking him up in the middle of the night and talk abt this... he feels that im presurising him thus, wanting a break up.. PLZ, may i noe that, is the demanding for an explanation(where every girl will do if u really love ur guy) = giving him pressure? i seriously cant stand he's fucking attitude... its oways becoz of some problems and he cant face it, he didnt even have the courage to press it on... or perhaps, he had ald wanted to end this relationship earlier... then of coz, he insist that he had not been lying to me.. bcoz he really do love me so blah blah blah... wadever... no matter wad, i still find it hard to trust him... he wanted to kill himself to prove that he is not lying... i doubt wether if its true... DUH... kill himself? crazy... he told me, 1/4 of he's blood is ald dripping on the floor... i didnt even noe if i can believe him... he is oways behaving in this way... THEREFORE, IM TIRED, real TIRED of him... i guess its a form of escape... everyting that happens rite now, its a cycle , its repeating... infact, it have been repeated for alot of times..
God, please help me to seek for the truth...
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