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Friday, October 19, 2007

Dear dairy, why do i feel so terrible? its such a torture to me where everday i have to face these feelings of mine over and over again. Sometimes i really thought that im going mad soon, its like 1 min im alright and 1 min i am not. i seriously couldent stand this any longer, im really afraid that i would hurt myself 1 day... i wish to see a physio, i hope it helps me. I AM SERIOUSLY VERY DEPRESS RIGHT NOW. i have troubles in falling a sleep almost everyday i can't sleep at all. Besides that, after falling asleep i would have nightmares [ they are all violent dreams ] and i dont feel like eatting dinner too. God, will u help me? will u protect me? will u take my hand and walk this painful journey with me? TELL ME, THAT IM NOT ALONE ; why am i dropping tears right now? when i type this? i dont want to cry at all bcoz i know crying couldent solve anyting and tears just flows when i mention god.. i dont want people to see me as im weak neither do i want myself to feel weak too.. god, do u hear me? i need u badly rite now. will u guide me? i dont wish to tell my problems to anyone elses bcoz i noe all they can do is " dont tink too much" wad can they do afterall? i hate feeling sad and it really feels terrible god, can u feel it? wad should i do now? what excatly should i do now? i want to break up but i cant , i want a revenge but i dont tink i can do so, i want to forgive and i couldent too! IM STUCK! i dont wish to put up with he's attitude anymore... wadever it is, i just feel so helpless i cant do anyting at all.

i feel like dying

when i noe i cant stand myself anymore
- i would

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TRAVELLING around the whole world
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Having GOOD grades for all of my subjects (A1 is what i desire)
Living in a City full of Lights.
T0 HAVE A CAR ACCIDENT [ i want a brainwash ]
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