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Friday, January 25, 2008

SOARING BEYOND THE HORIZON.

Well, nevermind about the post about him. I guess, sometimes i am just too crazy over him. life has been taxing all this while and i felt that i couldnt really slow down and take a breathe. I AM SUFFOCATING SOON. sigh.. I've got lots and lots of homeworks await for me. I have to complete them or else i would have to face my principal. You know, that Mrs Kok? 0ur 'BELOVED' mother. Sigh.. Aren't i pathetic? Just about 2 weeks ago, i didnt brought my Social Studies Textbook [ because of some complicating reasons out there] and i got to be sent to Mrs Kok. JUST LIKE THAT! you know.. just didn't bring ONE pathetic book and i got to be sent out. sigh.. what the fuck is this man.. The school has been getting STRICTER than ever. But, who can we blame? you? me? Mrs Kok? The Fact is that we got NO choice. Its obviously that the disciplinary job has to be strictly done. With o-level as the ONLY subject topic for the year that the principal would mention whenever she got the chance to do so. O-Level only makes my brain goes haywire~ I am Damn Exhausted. Sometimes, i wonder if i would be able to wake up again the next day.

Looking at my Dear Friend, I guess she would be feeling more stress up than I do. Needless to say why... Boyfriend is the word to describe it :) Sometimes, i do feel that we're or perhaps me.. I am just living in the world of 'me'. Every single day, all i do is to stare at the computer screen with words and sounds of reminders that reminds me of him. Everyday, i am expose to all these things around me. It enclosed up my thinking.. where i can only see that tiny little part of mine life thats filled with him. Once, i thought that my life was just ' you and i ' and thats it.. That's Me -Thats my life ; A Fullstop. But, it's not right. It's just not right. When I finally realise that.. Life is something more than just about 'you and i'. Its about 'US and THEM', people who are living in this world. There are people out there waiting for you, me, us, everyone to lend them a helping hand. They need us. The whole world is not just about 'you and i' . For all these years, i have been limiting myself, my thinking. When, the whole world out there is changing every single day ; i am still right here, facing at my computer screen everyday, recalling the memories i had in the past. I am still in square 1 and i showed no improvement at all. While, to the world all these things no longer exist anymore. I am just living in my world of memories. I guess, we all should look further and not just things that's infront of us.

Soaring Beyond The Horizon.

{01:31}

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Felicia LOVES Lewis :)

3veryone LOVED him. I thought I would too. Forever. But I couldn't have been more wrong. What started out as an innocent puppy-dog love in my adolescent years turned into two years of unshakable, abuse-laden torture.

我怀念的是无话不说　我怀念的是一起做梦

我怀念的是争吵以後　还是想要爱你的冲动

我该相信你很爱我　

不愿意敷衍我　

还是明白你已不想挽回什麼

想问为什麼　

我不再是你的快乐　

可是为什麼　

却苦笑说我都懂了

自尊常常将人拖著把爱都走曲折　

假装了解是怕　

真相太赤裸

狼狈比失去难受...

{06:43}

Friday, January 18, 2008

WELCOME ABOARD :)

I've done some research on the SIA[Singapore Airlines] Air/Flight Steward/Stewardess requirements just now& its quite disappointing that i couldn't be one because i didnt manage to fulfill the height requirement. I know, I GOT TO JUMP MORE XD HAHA!

Anyway, people who are interested in joining Singapore Airlines[ as in becoming an Air Steward/Stewardess] ; may take a look at what i have written below :)

- Minimum Height Requirement

Female: 1.58 meters , Male : 1.65 meters

* Degree/ Diploma OR* At least 2 GCE ‘A’-level credits and 2 ‘O’-level credits including General Paper in the GCE ‘A’-level examination

OR* At least 5 GCE ‘O’-level credits including English and working experience*

For Malaysian qualifications at SPM level, at least 5 credits including a minimum grade of B4 in English and working experience

* Completed, are exempted from, or are not liable for National Service. Those in the process of completing NS may also apply.Preference will be given to candidates who are able to speak foreign languages or are experienced in customer service. Interested applicants graduating by mid 2008 may also apply.

SINGAPORE AIRLINES [Some of the Rules and Regulations]

-Hair must be black or dark brown. No highlights allowed. Long hair must be coiffed neatly into a bun. Short hair should be above the collar line. Fringe should not touch the eyebrow.

-No fanciful, dangling earrings allowed. Only studs or pearls.

-No chains and necklaces allowed.

-A spare kebaya must be brought for every flight, even short one-hour flights.

- Safety shoes, or covered sandals must be worn during takeoff and landing. At other times, she

should wear the batik slippers. Toenails must be of the bright red color prescribed by the company.

-If her toenails are not paited, stockings must be worn to subsitute for the non red toenails.- Eyebrows must be shaped, and cannot be the fake drawn-on or tattooed types.

- Eye shadow must be of the color prescribed by the company

either blue or brown, depending on skin tone.

- Lipstick color must be among the few shades of bright red prescribed by the company. Pink or plum colors are not allowed.

- Nail polish must be of the bright red color prescribed by the company. Nails should not be chipped.

- Only simple bracelets and rings can be worn

-Only small and simple watches can be worn.

I hope you have a rough information of what is required.

Thankyou for reading and have a nice day :)

` FLY WITH ME.

{06:11}

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Happy Birthday Daddy and Jun Hong :)

{07:55}

The Best Lyrics that represents,
who I am.

& The 'You' will never be you again.

And I'd give up forever to touch you

Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

Cause sooner or later it's over

I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me

Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

Or the moment of truth in your lies

When everything feels like the movies

Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me

Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I don't want the world to see me

Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

{07:55}

Sunday, January 13, 2008

I dont cry,
I dont scream.
Because, i knew that nobody could hears me.

I knew that everything would come to an end, somehow, someday.. but judging from a long distant future, i've never thought that, it would be today. I guess this time, its true. Its not surprising actually because I feel that it's time for us to end everything too. I dont feel really upset or something. Perhaps it's just alittle bit of disappointment.. i wonder how does he feels like? He should be sleeping soundly right now, feeling really relief that he has 'get rid' of me or, will he___ be feeling really upset and hurtful deep inside? where nobody elses knows? I really have no idea, I dont know how he feels like... I'm tired of guessing. But, since this is what he really wants, i guess.. its within my limit of control.

Goodbye; Forever, My dear

{08:48}

Thursday, January 10, 2008

You Make Me FLUNG this love i had for you,

DON'T Regret it.

People take a look at this

(18:45) ❤MISS EVIL:
Hello dear
(18:45) -Gc- aiming 56th:
i am not ur dear...
(18:45) ❤MISS EVIL:
err.. its just a form of saying i guess
(18:45) ❤MISS EVIL:
not really that 'dear'
(18:46) -Gc- aiming 56th:
juz hello will do then
(18:46) ❤MISS EVIL:
.... im sorry.. for the misunderstanding

I dont know what's the problem with you.

Fine! I admit that, i still do have some feelings for you, Alright.

and i know that you do too.

DONT ever denied it ; DONT hide it.

Because i've always knew that

Ever since right from the start,

You love me more than i do.

And if right now,

I still couldn't get you off my mind ; do u think u can?

Even if u kept evading the truth ; do u think i would buy that?

HEllO People.

Here i am, just trying to be a friend.

i'm just trying to say hello.

NOW TELL ME, WHAT'S SOO WRONG ABOUT IT?!

why do you have to shoo me off like im trying to 'stick' onto you?

And Please.... why would i wanna stick onto you... * rolled eyes.

I mean, Dont you know me well enough? I've always been behaving in that manner

I'm 'passionate' to everyone.. well, mostly to all my good friends.

you know that? dont you? im just trying to be a friend.

What the fuck is so wrong about that?

Well, IM SORRY OKAY.

[i guess,u've really misunderstood me] /or

I FORGOT THAT DUMB PEOPLE LIKE YOU JUST

DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE

BETWEEN DEAR and'DEAR'.

DUH!

* I'm sorry guys... just trying to vent out

my frustration. I'm Dead Tired.

Especially right now,

when im having so much stress

{03:42}

Saturday, January 05, 2008

HELLO! SPOT ME :D
- taken on 25th Dec 2007
Location- Pasir Ris Chalet

Why would it even hurts to think about that?

I guess, it doesnt hurts that much too either :)

The sweet and wonderful memories of you.

CUT!

okay... i dont know what the fuck am i talking about.

- 25th Dec 2007

I miss the way, when we took a walk in the beach

I miss the way, when you protected me from others

I miss the way, when you spoke up for me infront of everyone

I miss the way, when you comfort me

I miss the way, when you care for me

I miss the way, when you put your arm over my waist

I miss the way, when you looked soo shy

I miss the way, when you are not saying anything

I miss the way, when we lay on the bed beside each other

The dark lighting in the room, which makes everything so wonderful.

* but RELAX, GUYS : we haven done anything yet.

{09:02}

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

BEAUTIFUL ILLUSIONS

路灯躲进窗台

摇醒我的无奈

这城市只剩下尘埃

纯粹的是期待

却消失得太快

未说出半句对白

没有爱的城市

漆黑正片天空的精彩

再多的色彩也调和不出绚丽的未来

寂寞的爱

在狂欢中苍白

躲过相互的依赖

却学不会释怀

谁陪我跳舞

谁又陪我同路

什么是情感天赋

什么是爱的追逐

谁陪我去哭

谁又陪我麻木

爱已穷途末路我却顽固

尽力维护

谁来陪我认输

谁又陪我迷路

走完路途

输了全部

却还说不出爱的满足

{05:58}

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Today is the 1st of Jan ; 1st day of the year, which is also my mom's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! Sadly, the school starts again. Like what it used to, every year. Here I am, feeling anxious now... I hope this year will be a good year as well as a new start for me. I got to WORK really HARD!! : ) sigh... guys support me please : ) A new year doesnt makes me feel happy at all. It doesnt erase off the memories from the past year. Infact, things've become more complicating than ever. JUST LET ME OFF. You know, i dont give a fuck about it anymore.

& I'm Just too tired to write it down.

{07:02}

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3veryone LOVED him. I thought I would too. Forever. But I couldn't have been more wrong. What started out as an innocent puppy-dog love in my adolescent years turned into two years of unshakable, abuse-laden torture.

♥Desires

TRAVELLING around the whole world
Going for a car racing[ u know thoes illegal ones like no one cares]
Having GOOD grades for all of my subjects (A1 is what i desire)
Living in a City full of Lights.
T0 HAVE A CAR ACCIDENT [ i want a brainwash ]
lastly, i wish for WORLD PEACE.

♥ Sweet 3scapes

Tiffany

Mummy

Sharine

Wen Xin

Gene

Apple Jie Jie

Long Xian

Sing Ning

Brant

0ng Jun Jie

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